WONDERING:

As I sit here in front of my computer and ponder about my life, I wonder or maybe wonder is not the right word for how I am feeling, maybe WANT is the best word. I Want to some things about my life, I just don't know where to begin. I WANT to be a better mother in so many ways that I don't know where to begin!!! It would take to many pages for me to enter all that I want to change, because some I don't know why I want to change them, I have no good reason, so I will just sit here and wonder and think and find a way to figure out where to start!!!
Oh a great note, congrats Jen on your Econ test, great to hear your score, knew you could do it!!!!!
Jen, you are in my prayers and you have my support, I know that you will find your way and I will be behind you no matter what.
Kari, I know that you prob don't read my blog, but wedding was beautiful and you have found a great man, I am so very happy for you. I wish that it didn't feel like we were sooo far apart, I miss that relationship, but I know that people move on and make new friends and keep old ones just a little bit further behind and I am ok with that, God will keep us in touch no matter what.

Well hope that everyone has a great Wednesday and hope that it doesn't rain all day!!!

WHAT A GREAT DAY!!!!

WELL I HAD A GREAT DAY AT WORK, EVEN THOUGH SOME OF MY CO WORKERS WERE PMSSSSSS(MALES AT THAT).
I MOWED TODAY AND I LOVE TO MOW, YOU GET TO BE IN YOUR OWN LITTLE WORLD WITH NO ONE BOTHERING YOU AND YOU ARE BY YOURSELF, GOSH I SO DO LOVE MOWING.
WE ONLY GOT PART OF ONE PARK DONE TODAY DUE TO THE LOVELY RAIN THE OTHER NIGHT MADE EVERYTHING SOGGY, SO SOGGY.
I HOPE TO ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING AT HOME TONIGHT FOR ONCE, WE WILL SEE IN A FEW HOURS WHEN I USUALLY START GETTING TIRED FROM THE DAY OF WORK.
WELL HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT THURSDAY AND IF NOT JUST REMEMBER ONLY ONE MORE DAY(EXECPT FOR ME, I HAVE TO WORK SATURDAY TILL 4 PM, BUT IT IS FOR A COMMUNITY SERVICE PROJECT THAT OUR DEPT IS PUTTING ON SO IT IS FOR A GREAT THING FOR THE CITY)
HAPPY THURSDAY
ADRIENNE

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WHAT A RELIEF!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK, SO I KNOW THAT IT HAS BEEN TOO LONG SINCE I HAVE UPDATED LAST AND ALOT HAS CHANGED SO I SHALL MAKE IT SHORT AND SWEET.
I HAVE NOW MOVED TO MY NEW JOB AT THE PARKS AND RECREATION DEPARTMENT FOR THE CITY, I DO LOVE IT, I DON'T LIKE THE PAY DECREASE, BUT THAT IS SOMETHING THAT I CAN DEAL WITH ON MY OWN. I WAS UPSET WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT I WOULD HAVE TO GO TO THIS JOB DUE TO THE CHANGE IN PAY, BUT I FEEL THAT GOD HAS DONE THIS TO ME FOR A REASON, I DON'T KNOW WHY YET, BUT THERE IS A REASON. DUE TO ME BEING FORCED INTO THIS JOB BY MY OWN STUPIDITY, MARC HAS HAD TO SACRIFICE TOO, BY GOING TO SECOND SHIFT(WHICH I DON'T THINK THAT HE MINDS NOW), BUT IT WAS FOR A GREAT CAUSE, TO HELP TAKE OFF THE STRESS FOR MY PARENTS TO WATCH CHANCE AT 4:30 IN THE MORNING WHEN I HAVE TO BE AT WORK EITHER AT 6 AM OR 5 AM, SO WE BOTH DID THE GROWN UP THING AND SACRIFICED(I MEAN THAT IS WHAT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO DO RIGHT!!!)
I LOVE THE PEOPLE AT THE NEW JOB AND I LOVE THAT I AM OUT AND ABOUT EVERYDAY, BUT I MISS MY OLD CO-WORKERS(THE GREAT THING ABOUT THAT IS WE STILL TALK AND SEE EACH OTHER, JUST NOT EVERYDAY).
THE NEGATIVE TO THIS JOB, I HATE PEOPLE WHO LITTER, WE CLEAN ALL THE 42 PARKS IN THE CITY OF EVANSVILLE AND SOMETIMES TWICE A DAY, DUE TO PEOPLE WHO DO NOT HAVE THE RESPECT TO CLEAN UP AFTER THEMSELVES ON A DAILY BASIS. I KNOW NOW THAT I WILL RESPECT EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE AROUND ME NO MATTER WHAT, FOR MYSELF FOR THEM, FOR MY CHILDREN. I AM BESIDE MYSELF TO SEE THE TRASHED PARKS AND I WONDER WHY PEOPLE DO THIS THEN ALLOW THEIR CHILDREN TO PLAY IN THEM??????? ummmmmmmm

AS TIME GOES BY, I AM STILL WONDERING WHY THINGS HAVE TO CHANGE, WHY FRIENDSHIPS HAVE TO BECOME DISTANT, WHY DO PEOPLE GROW APART???? FOR ME THAT IS THE TIMELESS QUESTION WITH NO ANSWER.

JUST ON A LAST NOTE, JEN WE NEED A GIRLS NIGHT TO TALK!!!! THANKS FOR TALKING AND LISTENING TO ME HERE LATELY ESP, IT HAS BEEN DIFFICULT AND YOU HAVE HELPED A GREAT DEAL AND I REALLY APPRECIATE THAT ALOT AND THANK GOD THAT YOU ARE IN MY LIFE.

WELL IT IS TIME FOR ME TO END FOR TODAY AND MY NEW PROMISE TO MY FRIEND JEN AND TO MYSELF I WILL BLOG MORE OFTEN.

HAVE A GREAT THURSDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!