13-16 Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother's womb. I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I'd even lived one day.

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We are officially pottied trained during the day, nap and night time, one weight is off of my shoulders!!. Never thought that we would get here, but I am proud to say that we did.
Just to recap on some things that have been going on in the new year, took baby girl to see Elmo Live with grandma, she was scared at first then she couldn't take her eyes off of the stage.
Last Saturday we got our first hair cut(yeh not kidding), the lady at the salon didn't believe us either, Chance just never had much hair when she was little(I think that she gets that from her daddy, LOL)
Tonight me and my baby baked cookies for the first time, and she was so adorable, she was so beside herself, putting that cookie cutter in the dough then putting the sprinkles that she picked out at the store on top of the cookies. You should have seen her eating the well deserved cookie, the best time ever!!!
As for me, I sit here and wonder how I can change my situation at work, do I figure out how to go back to school, do I look for a job outside of the city or just let them transfer me wherever and just deal with it, what ever changes to our lives it may bring. I need some guidance!!!!

What a Great Year!! 2008

Ok, so Christmas has come and gone and so has New Years, went by so fast. You get so excited for it to be here and then it goes by in a flash!
I have to say 2008 was a great year, I met new people and created stronger bonds with friends, had a great vacation with wonderful friends(The Zimmers) and family that I love and care about, finally got my 3 year old almost fully pottied trained(didn't think that was ever going to happen), finally found a home in a church that I really enjoy thanks to a friend, just so many things to mention, I could type all night long.
The year had some trying times, loosing my grandmother was a shocker and watching my mother go through the worst of it and not knowing how to help her, because she is like her mother she keeps it hidden. I think that sitting by my grandmothers bed at the nursing home and watching her change completely from day to day even to where she didn't know chance and she loved chance so much, it makes you really think how things can change at a drop of a hat, so you have to live life completely to the fullest without any regrets and create and remember those memories that are close to your heart.
It was even harder watching Jenn and Tony sit there and wonder what was going on with Brady, wondering what I could do to help, I knew praying was the first and being there to support them all. But you know what even with the diagnosis that they received I have watched Brady develop into this wonderful, sweet, smart, special little boy and I believe in my heart that he is here to show us something wonderful, and I believe that he has shown up those doctors!!!!! He is a miracle.
I was able to do so many things in 2008 due to the help of friends and family and I am grateful for everyone in my life and I cherish them close to my heart.
So I hope that everyone had a great Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

So I write for 2009:

I will learn to care about myself and take care of myself.

I will spend more time with my friends and family, creating new memories that are special.

I will learn something new everyday.

I will try to realize that I will be loved and understood by my step-son, no matter what he is told or shown.

I will remember that everything happens for a reason, we just have to find out what that reason is.

I will learn to be patient and show my children how to learn, love and live.