"MY HOW FAST "

Just had to include some new pictures of Chance. She is growing up fast before my very eyes, and someday's I wish that she would stay my little baby that I could rock in my arms, then other days I can't wait for her to experience something new and exciting. I hope as a mother that I can give new and exciting things all the time.

We are currently trying out Soccertots at Metro Sports Center, we had our first class last Tuesday, she stood in the corner and cried the whole time screaming at me "to get her out of here!" It was great, but the mother that I am, made her stay, at some points of the session, she did stop crying and do some of the games, but still did let me leave the arena and did not want anything to do with the other little ones. And to top it all off, as soon as we got home, she took her new soccer ball and kicked it around the house while stating that she loves soccer, got to love it!!!!!!

Hope to have laid back weekend, today going to the mall with a friend for some much needed girl talk and kiddo play time, then laid back night at home getting things done. Sunday, church and lunch with friends, then home to relax before the work begins.

Hope that everyone has a great weekend.

WHERE DOES THE TIME GO????

WELL, IT HAS BEEN A WHILE, TOO LONG SINCE MY LAST POST AND ALOT HAS HAPPENED.
FIRST OFF WEATHER IS FINALLY WARMING UP, JUST NOW WE HAVE GOT TO GET THE RAIN TO STOP.
MY NEW POSITION AT THE PARKS DEPT IS GOING GREAT, I LOVE THE PEOPLE THAT I WORK WITH AND THE WONDERFUL HOURS THAT I AM WORKING AND EVEN WITH THE OVERTIME DURING THE WEEK WE STILL GET OFF AT NORMAL HOURS.
ON A SAD NOTE, MY BOSS AND HIS FAMILY LOST THERE INFANT DAUGHTER "MYA LYNAE COPELAND", THE FUNERAL WAS BREATHING TAKING IN A WAY THAT YOU GOT TO SEE HOW BEAUTIFUL THIS CHILD WOULD HAVE BEEN, BUT GOD HAD A DIFFERENT PLAN FOR HER, I PUT THIS IN MY BLOG, TO DEDICATE TO MYA, THIS IS FROM HER FATHER AND MOTHER:
I FELT YOUR PRESENCE THERE INSIDE OF ME, NESTLED SOFT AND WARM;
SWEET SCENT OF BABYS BREATH, PRECIOUS WORDS LEFT UNADORNED.
I SAW YOUR TINY HEARTBEAT THEN I KNEW THAT YOU WERE FINE,
A PERFECT BABY WE CREATED, ONE THAT WOULD BE MINE.
THEN THAT TRAGIG DAY IT CAME THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO,
ONLY WAIT AND HOPE FOR THE PRECIOUS LIFE OF YOU.
YES IN THE BEGINNING YOUR DADDY WAS AFRAID;
ONLY HE WOULD LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONAL AND NEVER RUN AWAY.
HE LOVED YOU MORE THIS I DO KNOW, AS HE CRIED FOR YOU THAT DAY
WHEN THE DOCTOR SAID THAT YOU WERE GONE, DADDY WANTED YOU TO STAY.
HE WOULD HAVE HELD YOU CLOSE TO HIM, AND SEE YOUR PERFECT FORM,
A GIFT OF DADDY'S LOVE, WOULD HAVE KEPT YOU SAFE AND WARM.
ONLY NOW YOU ARE AN ANGEL OVER ME BEAUTIFUL AND BARE,
MY HEART WOULD HURT IF YOU CRIED FOR ME AND MOMMY WAS NOT THERE.
STILL WE ARE TOGETHER IN MY HEART AND MEMORIES, YOU ARE STILL A PART OF MY MEMORY.
REST GENTLE NOW SWEET BABY THERE IS NO PAIN YOU ARE NEVER ALONE,
I KNOW YOU ARE WITH THE GUIDING ANGELS IN YOUR PEACEFUL HOME.
I WILL COME WITH YOU SOMEDAY ONLY NOW IS NOT MY TIME
THEN WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN, AGAIN YOU WILL BE MINE


THIS HELPS ME REMEMBER HOW LUCKY I AM FOR MY PRECIOUS GIFT THAT GOD HAS GIVEN ME AND TO NEVER TAKE ANYTHING FOR GRANTED EVER, CAUSE GOD MY HAVE A DIFFERENT PLAN FOR ANYONE AND WE CAN NEVER CHANGE THAT.

I WILL HAVE TO POST NEXT TIME THE GREAT TIME THAT WE HAD AT THE ZOO WITH GREAT FRIENDS AND PUT SOME PICTURES WITH THAT, UNTIL NEXT TIME, JUST REMEMBER TO HUG THOSE LITTLE ONES EVERY DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ADRIENNE

WONDERING:

As I sit here in front of my computer and ponder about my life, I wonder or maybe wonder is not the right word for how I am feeling, maybe WANT is the best word. I Want to some things about my life, I just don't know where to begin. I WANT to be a better mother in so many ways that I don't know where to begin!!! It would take to many pages for me to enter all that I want to change, because some I don't know why I want to change them, I have no good reason, so I will just sit here and wonder and think and find a way to figure out where to start!!!
Oh a great note, congrats Jen on your Econ test, great to hear your score, knew you could do it!!!!!
Jen, you are in my prayers and you have my support, I know that you will find your way and I will be behind you no matter what.
Kari, I know that you prob don't read my blog, but wedding was beautiful and you have found a great man, I am so very happy for you. I wish that it didn't feel like we were sooo far apart, I miss that relationship, but I know that people move on and make new friends and keep old ones just a little bit further behind and I am ok with that, God will keep us in touch no matter what.

Well hope that everyone has a great Wednesday and hope that it doesn't rain all day!!!

WHAT A GREAT DAY!!!!

WELL I HAD A GREAT DAY AT WORK, EVEN THOUGH SOME OF MY CO WORKERS WERE PMSSSSSS(MALES AT THAT).
I MOWED TODAY AND I LOVE TO MOW, YOU GET TO BE IN YOUR OWN LITTLE WORLD WITH NO ONE BOTHERING YOU AND YOU ARE BY YOURSELF, GOSH I SO DO LOVE MOWING.
WE ONLY GOT PART OF ONE PARK DONE TODAY DUE TO THE LOVELY RAIN THE OTHER NIGHT MADE EVERYTHING SOGGY, SO SOGGY.
I HOPE TO ACCOMPLISH SOMETHING AT HOME TONIGHT FOR ONCE, WE WILL SEE IN A FEW HOURS WHEN I USUALLY START GETTING TIRED FROM THE DAY OF WORK.
WELL HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT THURSDAY AND IF NOT JUST REMEMBER ONLY ONE MORE DAY(EXECPT FOR ME, I HAVE TO WORK SATURDAY TILL 4 PM, BUT IT IS FOR A COMMUNITY SERVICE PROJECT THAT OUR DEPT IS PUTTING ON SO IT IS FOR A GREAT THING FOR THE CITY)
HAPPY THURSDAY
ADRIENNE

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WHAT A RELIEF!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK, SO I KNOW THAT IT HAS BEEN TOO LONG SINCE I HAVE UPDATED LAST AND ALOT HAS CHANGED SO I SHALL MAKE IT SHORT AND SWEET.
I HAVE NOW MOVED TO MY NEW JOB AT THE PARKS AND RECREATION DEPARTMENT FOR THE CITY, I DO LOVE IT, I DON'T LIKE THE PAY DECREASE, BUT THAT IS SOMETHING THAT I CAN DEAL WITH ON MY OWN. I WAS UPSET WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT I WOULD HAVE TO GO TO THIS JOB DUE TO THE CHANGE IN PAY, BUT I FEEL THAT GOD HAS DONE THIS TO ME FOR A REASON, I DON'T KNOW WHY YET, BUT THERE IS A REASON. DUE TO ME BEING FORCED INTO THIS JOB BY MY OWN STUPIDITY, MARC HAS HAD TO SACRIFICE TOO, BY GOING TO SECOND SHIFT(WHICH I DON'T THINK THAT HE MINDS NOW), BUT IT WAS FOR A GREAT CAUSE, TO HELP TAKE OFF THE STRESS FOR MY PARENTS TO WATCH CHANCE AT 4:30 IN THE MORNING WHEN I HAVE TO BE AT WORK EITHER AT 6 AM OR 5 AM, SO WE BOTH DID THE GROWN UP THING AND SACRIFICED(I MEAN THAT IS WHAT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO DO RIGHT!!!)
I LOVE THE PEOPLE AT THE NEW JOB AND I LOVE THAT I AM OUT AND ABOUT EVERYDAY, BUT I MISS MY OLD CO-WORKERS(THE GREAT THING ABOUT THAT IS WE STILL TALK AND SEE EACH OTHER, JUST NOT EVERYDAY).
THE NEGATIVE TO THIS JOB, I HATE PEOPLE WHO LITTER, WE CLEAN ALL THE 42 PARKS IN THE CITY OF EVANSVILLE AND SOMETIMES TWICE A DAY, DUE TO PEOPLE WHO DO NOT HAVE THE RESPECT TO CLEAN UP AFTER THEMSELVES ON A DAILY BASIS. I KNOW NOW THAT I WILL RESPECT EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE AROUND ME NO MATTER WHAT, FOR MYSELF FOR THEM, FOR MY CHILDREN. I AM BESIDE MYSELF TO SEE THE TRASHED PARKS AND I WONDER WHY PEOPLE DO THIS THEN ALLOW THEIR CHILDREN TO PLAY IN THEM??????? ummmmmmmm

AS TIME GOES BY, I AM STILL WONDERING WHY THINGS HAVE TO CHANGE, WHY FRIENDSHIPS HAVE TO BECOME DISTANT, WHY DO PEOPLE GROW APART???? FOR ME THAT IS THE TIMELESS QUESTION WITH NO ANSWER.

JUST ON A LAST NOTE, JEN WE NEED A GIRLS NIGHT TO TALK!!!! THANKS FOR TALKING AND LISTENING TO ME HERE LATELY ESP, IT HAS BEEN DIFFICULT AND YOU HAVE HELPED A GREAT DEAL AND I REALLY APPRECIATE THAT ALOT AND THANK GOD THAT YOU ARE IN MY LIFE.

WELL IT IS TIME FOR ME TO END FOR TODAY AND MY NEW PROMISE TO MY FRIEND JEN AND TO MYSELF I WILL BLOG MORE OFTEN.

HAVE A GREAT THURSDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JUST ANOTHER DAY

Just another day at work, the job that I made my decision yesterday that I am not going to be doing for the rest of my life, it is time to move on, I just now have to start taking the steps to better my education and do want I want to do in life. This will all take time, I know, but God will lead me as I go, I just have to be patient(not one of my strong features) but I will learn. I have wonderful friends and family who will support me and help me in my decisions wether bad or good, so I am very blessed for that, and I thank God everyday for them.
Just have to say Thankyou to Jen for your latest blog, you are a very kind, generous, loving, wonderful friend to all, and don't ever think for once that you have been "just all about you", because you haven't(just had to say it). You have always been there for me!! I appreciate it.
So, I think that it is time for the McDowells and Zimmers to hit Great Wolfe, yes I believe that it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just wanted to say something a little on a sad note, I have been reading up on the Knepps and their blog, and want to say had sadden I am about their loss of their baby boy Andon, I could not imagine that type of grief or what I would do, you have to be a very strong person to get through something like this, and my prays are with their family.
Well it is off to getting little one up for school and me off to work, hope that everyone has a great day, Jen be careful going to school.
Adrienne

Going Back In Time.

Well, it has been awhile since I have last written. A lot has been going on, loosing power for 3 days(no not as long as some people, but for me it was long enough), and having to come home to a smelly house due to the food that we lost. Winter, what to do with Winter, ready for the heat waves to go away in the summer and ready for the cool weather for winter, but when it gets here we are so ready for it to leave and hopefully take nothing in its path.
Well, myself I have been struggling to deal with some things, don't really know why, but I am.
I can't for the life of me get it through my head that time changes everything, that friendships move on to different worlds and stay the same, grow apart or get stronger. I sometimes wish that things didn't have to change, but I know that they are supposed to for good reason.
I thought that I was having alot of trouble dealing with the fact that someone who I thought that I had a lasting promise with, betrayed me by breaking that promise, but this past weekend, I was assured that our friendship is still there, there are just new ways of seeing that friendship. I have to say, that when you are put together with a group of friends who you haven't seen in almost 5 years and you take a picture, it brings up the old times, good and bad, then it makes you realize nothing has changed, it is still there, now you just have new stories and pictures to show everyone and that it is ok to watch someone move on to something special.
This past weekend was hard for me, I was once again reminded in church that I miss my grandmother alot more than I let people to believe, especially when I about loose it when the paster announces that a special person in our congregation is celebrating their 98th birthday and when I turn to look, I about loose it totally because all I can think about, "why didn't my grandmother live to be that age and watch chance grow up a little bit more?".
So many thoughts these days, can't seem to process them all anymore, I am so behind on doing the things that I want to do, that they get put on the end of the list, because the must do's have to happen before, and then I am just too tired to do them, oh well, they will get done eventually. Right!!!
Well we did have a great lunch last weekend with Jenn, Brady and Alex, it was great watching all play on the playground!!!!
Well got to go for now, husband is sick again, can't seem to get rid of anything!!!

13-16 Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother's womb. I thank you, High God—you're breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I'd even lived one day.

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We are officially pottied trained during the day, nap and night time, one weight is off of my shoulders!!. Never thought that we would get here, but I am proud to say that we did.
Just to recap on some things that have been going on in the new year, took baby girl to see Elmo Live with grandma, she was scared at first then she couldn't take her eyes off of the stage.
Last Saturday we got our first hair cut(yeh not kidding), the lady at the salon didn't believe us either, Chance just never had much hair when she was little(I think that she gets that from her daddy, LOL)
Tonight me and my baby baked cookies for the first time, and she was so adorable, she was so beside herself, putting that cookie cutter in the dough then putting the sprinkles that she picked out at the store on top of the cookies. You should have seen her eating the well deserved cookie, the best time ever!!!
As for me, I sit here and wonder how I can change my situation at work, do I figure out how to go back to school, do I look for a job outside of the city or just let them transfer me wherever and just deal with it, what ever changes to our lives it may bring. I need some guidance!!!!

What a Great Year!! 2008

Ok, so Christmas has come and gone and so has New Years, went by so fast. You get so excited for it to be here and then it goes by in a flash!
I have to say 2008 was a great year, I met new people and created stronger bonds with friends, had a great vacation with wonderful friends(The Zimmers) and family that I love and care about, finally got my 3 year old almost fully pottied trained(didn't think that was ever going to happen), finally found a home in a church that I really enjoy thanks to a friend, just so many things to mention, I could type all night long.
The year had some trying times, loosing my grandmother was a shocker and watching my mother go through the worst of it and not knowing how to help her, because she is like her mother she keeps it hidden. I think that sitting by my grandmothers bed at the nursing home and watching her change completely from day to day even to where she didn't know chance and she loved chance so much, it makes you really think how things can change at a drop of a hat, so you have to live life completely to the fullest without any regrets and create and remember those memories that are close to your heart.
It was even harder watching Jenn and Tony sit there and wonder what was going on with Brady, wondering what I could do to help, I knew praying was the first and being there to support them all. But you know what even with the diagnosis that they received I have watched Brady develop into this wonderful, sweet, smart, special little boy and I believe in my heart that he is here to show us something wonderful, and I believe that he has shown up those doctors!!!!! He is a miracle.
I was able to do so many things in 2008 due to the help of friends and family and I am grateful for everyone in my life and I cherish them close to my heart.
So I hope that everyone had a great Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

So I write for 2009:

I will learn to care about myself and take care of myself.

I will spend more time with my friends and family, creating new memories that are special.

I will learn something new everyday.

I will try to realize that I will be loved and understood by my step-son, no matter what he is told or shown.

I will remember that everything happens for a reason, we just have to find out what that reason is.

I will learn to be patient and show my children how to learn, love and live.